One Year Anniversary Since the Flood
It's been almost a month since my last post -
http://mikellsgems.livejournal.com/. I've been retreating, hiding in my shell, the home I carry on my back, like a turtle. Since the flood, a year ago on April 16/17, I have slowly pulled back into the illusion of safety in my shell.
I'm hearing the word 'vulnerable' in so many contexts recently. It was the title of our Easter Service at church - the best sermon I've ever heard. http://www.pinestreet.org/live-stream/ I've read several references to being vulnerable this week, and it was the common thread in last week's tele-class.
After class I began to work on the Prosperous Heart by Julia Cameron and found this quote.
"Loss is always a gain in disguise."
Julia elaborates, stating that when loss is excruciatingly painful, we need to turn to faith. "Loss puts us back in touch with our own spirit. It cracks our harder shell and exposes our vulnerability."
Years ago i found an acorn in the woods and carried it home, thinking about one of my favorite lessons from nature -
"An acorn holds the promise of a thousand forests."
I carried the acorn home and put it on the shelf in the living room, but as I turned to walk away it occurred to me that it would never fulfill it's promise isolated on a shelf in my cabin. It would never reach its full potential unless it's brittle outer shell was softened by nature and allowed to become vulnerable. I took the acorn back to the place I found it, confident that the forces of nature would work their magic.
Being isolated and safe is an illusion. When we try to protect ourselves from life, we lose the opportunity for growth, interaction and joy. Vulner - ability is a word I needed to hear. I'm leaving my hard shell and going back out into the world after a period of temporary retreat. Tonight's class made me realize that we are all fragile, yet in our vulnerability lies boundless strength.
Thank you Sparks, for your love, support, patience and unconditional acceptance.
You've given me the courage to become soft and receptive. Now I can find my strength and fulfill my dreams.
"My mission is
to help others see and cherish the beauty,
romance and treasures within and around them
that are often dismissed or completely overlooked."
Mikell is a writer, artist and professional treasure hunter, finding the greatest treasures in the wonderful people who enter her life!